Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Unanswered Questions??????

To start with, I would like to remind you of my last post "I feel blessed that it happenend to me" wherein I mentioned some really beautiful memories of mine, but I guess, for once, you all would have thought about the story after that. Didn't you? :) I, intentionally, mentioned the word "story" because that's all it is now though it was a reality before some days.

Yes, I ended that beautiful relationship, leaving few questions unanswered!

Probably, you would've already guessed some of those, like for example, I couldn't get her to love me, that's why, or I would've lost interest in her or else! Yes, these were the reasons among other more important ones. I kinda hope if you could answer that.

  • First question that I asked myself, is it appropriate to suppress my feelings every time I look at her, every time I talk to her or just think about her? I, being an introvert, could have caused an explosion someday, if I hadn't ended that relationship and keep suppressing those not-so-relevant feelings and that could have been disastrous for all of us. I know it sounds really selfish, but how many times do you really think about yourself in a day? Probably, not even once. It's not like I've become totally numb towards her, but it's not logical to spend the rest of your life thinking that you liked someone and couldn't tell her just because she liked someone else. You really get to learn caring about yourself first before caring for someone else. And apart from myself, there are few more important people than her whom I really need to take care of, yes, that's my family, my stupid friends, who really get upset when they find me in such miserable state of mind.
  • I somewhere read the line.
    Things pass and the best we can do is to let them really go away.
    Otherwise, if you keep pulling the thread, it may break and it'll break it forever which usually cause people hurt badly. Or, as I put in other words, the relationship may lose it's flexibility because of it's elastic nature and when pulling goes off the limit, it will leave you standing alone on one side of a never ending ocean. Somewhere in my heart, I hoped that may be someday, she'll have something for me and she knew that too, which surely has hurt her since she's a such a caring person. May be that's one of the reason, she wasn't able to concentrate on the love of her life and just going on with the flow. I don't know if it's right or wrong but I chose to step back. Perhaps you can answer to that.
  • Last, but not the least, career calling! Love is not sufficient to live. Just after reading the words "career calling", you all would definitely have a clear picture of what I'm going to write now. So I'm not going to bore you all of that career related crap. He He :P
P.S. : Love is a feeling to spread all over, not to throw it all on someone specific. It'll definitely hurt the person who gets it most and the one who gets nothing....

Thanks for your time!
Have a nice day!! :)